Today is the first of June. Sorry to point out the obvious but this is my month. My birthday is in 9 days. I have a history of doing great things this month, whether that is passing ridiculous exams in school, or ditching school forever for Glastonbury (the best music festival in the WORLD!) with my boyfriend and a tent that hopefully doesn't leak, or finding myself in a foreign country setting up home. I have celebrated my birthday in Ireland, South Africa, America and now Australia.
I get a bit reflective around my birthday as well, not so unusual, but as I turn the ripe old age of 24 I think about what I have been doing with myself since graduating from Uni and truthfully I am not really satisfied or impressed with what I have done so far. I'm sure anyone reading this will roll their eyes in exasperation, cursing youth and its perpetual dissatisfaction with everything. But I can't help feeling like there is more that I should be doing and achieving right now. I look at other friends who graduated with me from Berklee and the cool jobs they have, the music they are making, and well, I just seem to be drifting along. If it wasn't for DB's job offer in Brisbane, I could still be living back in the back-end of nowhere in Ireland. And even now that I am here, I get home from work, eat, watch TV all evening, knit and then sleep. I go out a bit but I am hardly changing myself or the world. I feel very lost sometimes.
I suppose a birthday is as good a time as ever to reflect on the past year and look forward to a better, more aware and fulfilled year to come. Hmmmm, got to keep my eye on the ball, and on my To Do list perhaps...
1 comment:
birthdays suck. but the reflection is good. i say baby steps. then before you know it you'll be there :)
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